Rocky IV [1985)

America is in serious trouble.

The USA has no pride.

No cohesion.

The United States of America does not command respect from any nation on earth.

This process began to exponentially accelerate on 9/11/01.

That is when we entered the Age of Perpetual Lies.

Two wars.

Afghanistan.

Loss.

Iraq.

Lost before it even began.

You cannot predicate a “righteous war” upon a lie.

Two wars.

Two towers.

More lies.

Why do I love Russia?

Because they are not weak.

They are not spineless.

They are not a nation of ineffectual do-nothings.

And that is because of one great man.

Vladimir Putin.

There is a vacuum of power in the United States.

An absence of leadership.

We are a country drifting at sea.

A country who does not know who it is.

Or what it stands for.

A country perfectly divided.

Right down the middle.

Where one side cancels out the other.

This is not a check and balance.

It is a negation resulting in complete defeat.

America has no national spirit.

America’s reason for being has disappeared.

Along with the truth.

Who will save America?

You must save America.

It’s ok to love Russia.

It’s ok to love China.

Yes, I love China too.

Why?

Because they are on the righteous side of the war in Ukraine.

America is on the wrong side.

And I also love Palestine.

I’m sick of Donald Trump’s bullshit lies and politicking.

Even though I voted for him twice.

He has lied repeatedly about the COVID vaccines.

But even so, I support Trump in his legal battles.

Why?

Because he is being unfairly persecuted and punished.

But Trump is wrong about Israel.

Lindsey Graham is wrong about Iran.

I love Iran.

Because they stand with Russia.

And I love Syria.

Because they stand with Russia.

America continues to fight a pointless war.

IN SYRIA.

This is madness.

I support Palestine because they are the bastard children of the world.

They have no big press machine behind them.

Unlike the propaganda onslaught in favor of Israel.

Josh Hawley is wrong about Israel.

So wrong that it is embarassing.

Fox News is infinitely embarassing.

They have completely lost the ability to think as logical, rational human beings.

Whose interests are they serving?

And why?

Trump is wrong to politick off the war in Israel.

I don’t hate Israel.

I don’t hate Ukraine.

But I hate propaganda.

And I hate an unfair advantage.

Ukraine has had the advantage of a global propaganda machine behind it.

I detest that.

Israel always has the advantage of a global propaganda machine behind it.

And America fights for everyone but itself.

America is weak.

Porous.

Like Swiss cheese.

What can bring America together?

Not more lies.

No more lies.

No more noble lies.

RFK Jr. is right about the vaccines.

And MSNBC is actually right about Palestine and Israel.

America is on the point of total collapse.

The American military leadership is an embarassment.

Particularly Mark Milley.

His obstreperous James Comey pantomime is finally over.

He no longer has the office of CJCS to lend him any undue legitimacy.

I expect he will become much like John Brennan and Michael Hayden.

A complete detriment to the USA…even in retirement.

Does America have any good military leaders?

At all???

I like Michael Flynn.

That’s about it.

No one else has shown me anything impressive.

RFK Jr. is the best candidate to unite the country.

Trump may be the best candidate to save the country.

The American government is completely dysfunctional.

George W. Bush stole the 2000 election.

And Joe Biden stole the 2020 election.

Will your vote matter in 2024?

Do any votes matter?

Republicans lack a coherent strategy.

As dumb as Trump is (very fucking dumb!), he’s a fucking genius compared to ALL other Republican Presidential candidates.

Biden is as dumb as a potato.

And RFK Jr. will be boxed out everywhere he goes.

This is not a free system.

These are not “free and fair” elections.

This is a travesty.

Who will save America?

You must do it.

In your own way.

Whether big or small.

It’s ok to love and respect Russia.

It’s ok to say nice things about China.

It’s ok to root for Palestine.

It’s ok to sympathize with Iran and Syria.

Where is the American military?

We’ve seen the worst of the U.S. military (Milley).

Where’s the best?

Show yourselves.

-PD

Murder by Decree [1979)

To what extent are the recent attacks on Israel a false-flag?

Where upon the LIHOP-MIHOP continuum do they fall?

Let It Happen On Purpose.

Make It Happen On Purpose.

Israel was in disarray.

This year.

Divided.

Like America was after the disastrous “hanging chad” election of 2000.

But the country was “brought together” by the false-flag/stand-down of 9/11/01.

And so the 21st century began.

Study Pearl Harbor.

FDR.

The Wohlstetters.

The neocons.

And their Israeli connections.

The Gaza Strip has been under an Israeli-Egyptian blockade since 2007.

How did they get weapons?

Where did they come from?

If not by sea, then by what route?

Or was the blockade so magnificently ineffective???

Since 9/11, a thinking person would do well to believe that which is diametrically-opposed to whatever is the prevailing mainstream news position on most current events.

Narrative: 9/11 was the work of 19 beardy Muslims (mostly Saudis) wielding nothing more than box cutters

More likely: 9/11 was the work of the American government

Narrative: the Twin Towers fell down

More likely: the Twin Towers were blown up

There are some limits to this George Costanza method.

For instance…

Narrative: four planes were hijacked

An opposite: there were no planes

I, for one, believe there were planes.

But whether there were or not, we begin to lose sight of the big picture if we haggle over esoteric points.

Let’s be frank, how could Israel have not been ready for this?

It makes no sense whatsoever.

Gaza has been blockaded by sea for 16 years.

In contrast, Israel has some of the most advanced weaponry in the world.

Israel is a country built upon VIGILANCE.

This was not a surprise.

Not by any stretch of the imagination.

The attack did not come from an unexpected point.

Ok, so they used some paragliders.

So what?

WHAT ELSE WAS NOVEL ABOUT THIS ATTACK?

As far as I can tell, almost nothing.

The attack was bold.

Ok, I will concede that.

But what of these areas bordering the Gaza Strip?

Wouldn’t these be the most well-protected areas in Israel?

Either Israel is being run by very stupid leaders, or the events that transpired were EXACTLY WHAT these leaders WANTED to transpire.

Why?

A. to unite a divided country

B. to look like the victim and thus be able to launch a disproportionate riposte under the aegis of “defense”

Something is very seriously amiss in all of this.

Let’s return to that mostly-useful exercise of more accurately “reading” the news.

Mainstream media: Israel is good–Palestine is bad

It would then necessarily follow that: Israel is bad–Palestine is good

The truth may be more subtle.

Perhaps Israel is not so bad.

Perhaps Palestine is not so good.

And backing up.

Perhaps Israel is not so good.

Perhaps Palestine is not so bad.

But you will see nothing but biased reporting in the USA (among other places) concerning these events.

You will be bombarded will PSAs about anti-Semitism.

You will see videos of Israelis being kidnapped.

But you will not experience any coordinated media blitz which highlights the plight of Palestine.

They will receive no sympathetic ink.

You will be provided with no counterbalance–no psychologically-manipulating context on why exactly the Palestinians and the larger Islamic world are pissed off at Israel.

History must be erased.

Ignored.

We depend upon your stupidity and ignorance to view these events STRICTLY IN THE CONTEXT WHICH WE HAVE PROVIDED YOU.

No shades of meaning may exist.

There is good: Israel

There is bad: Palestine

If you color outside these lines, you are anti-Semitic.

The ADL will soon be knocking at your proverbial (?) door.

Your social media accounts will be permanently suspended.

Because to disagree with the caveman-like logic of “Israel good–Palestine bad” is HATE SPEECH.

Dontcha know?

I love Jews.

I love Muslims.

I respect Israelis.

I respect Palestinians.

Most of all, I respect Russians.

And their allies: the communist Chinese.

I also respect he Middle Eastern allies of Russia: Syria and Iran.

I do not approve of an American carrier strike group GETTING ANYWHERE NEAR this shitstorm.

Remember the USS Liberty!!!

Remember how Netanyahu and Boris Johnson were the first two major world leaders to congratulate Biden on his “win” in 2020.

I was very open-minded about Israel under the mostly-excellent Presidency of Donald Trump.

That goodwill vanished when Netanyahu effectively validated the 2020 U.S. elections as “free and fair”.

And this pissed Trump off.

YET TRUMP IS STILL SHILLING FOR ISRAEL.

[when he’s not busy shilling for Pfizer]

Trump abdicated his final year in office to Fauci and Pence.

And Pence ruined the USA.

Trump will never admit that he rushed unsafe, ineffective vaccines to market.

What are we to do?

I stand with RFK Jr.

Can he win?

Probably not.

But how can I stand with moronic Trump?

Jan. 7, 2023: start of Israeli anti-Judicial reform protests (Habima square)

Jan. 14, 2023: over 80,000 Israelis protest in Tel Aviv against judicial reform

Mar. 26, 2023: Netanyahu dismisses defense minister Yoav Gallant after Gallant called for discussions to be paused on controversial judicial reform bill

Mar. 27, 2023: Netanyahu announces a pause on his government’s judicial reform bill

Jul. 5, 2023: Tel Aviv police chief Amichai Esched announces his resignation sparking demonstrations by large crowds in solidarity with him

Oct. 7, 2023: country magically comes together to fight a common enemy

Has Israel ever supported Hamas?

Has Israel ever enabled Hamas?

To what extent has Mossad infiltrated Hamas?

And I ask these questions again, where the fuck are all these weapons in Gaza coming from?

No, let met ask in another way.

BY WHAT ROUTE(S) are these weapons entering Gaza?

Gaza fires 5,000 rockets on Oct. 7.

These rockets only kill 5 people.

What are these?

Fucking roman candles?

Bottle rockets???

So you’re telling me approximately 695 Israelis have been killed IN ISRAEL due to Gaza checkpoints being overwhelmed?!?

Gimme a fucking break.

The implausibility of that…

At the very least, Israel wanted this attack to happen…in order to have a casus belli to wipe Gaza off the map with as little international pushback as possible.

I simply don’t believe that Israel’s leaders are so stupid as to have flimsy fortifications and weak troop numbers on the border with Gaza.

Israel has nuclear weapons.

Israel has 50-75 U.S. F-35 stealth fighters (the most advanced fighter jets that the USA has).

Gaza has pickup trucks.

And some bulldozers.

Gimme a fucking break.

This does not add up.

-PD

The Magnificent Seven [1960)

Patriots are NOT in control.

I repeat.

Patriots are NOT in control.

Wake the fuck up, America!!!

You are waiting for the next rigged election?!?

2024???

The purpose of QAnon was to make American patriots PASSIVE.

When the chips were down, American patriots did NOTHING.

Because they thought the American MILITARY was going to SAVE THEM.

That did not happen.

It was a fucking lie.

Wake the fuck up, America!!!

What is to be done?

Local action equals national impact.

Do your part.

Help your neighbor.

As for the American military, they are the most abject of fucking losers.

I am talking about the commanders.

I am talking about the Joint Chiefs of Staff.

I am talking about the the human pus-bucket Secretary of Defense.

The American military has lost the TRUST of the American people.

Why?

How?

Because when the chips were down, THEY DID NOTHING.

Donald Trump ROYALLY fucked up by leaving office without ASSURING the American public that the 2020 Presidential results were legit.

General Flynn showed Trump the path.

Trump DID NOT take that path.

The path was for the U.S. military to confiscate voting machines and VERIFY that they indeed had not been hacked.

Donald Trump failed.

And now he wants another chance.

The sad thing is, he may be the best chance we have to get the country back.

America is fucked.

Totally fucked.

Fucked Up Beyond All Recognition.

And so we wait for another rigged election.

In case the 2020 rigged election seemed too far back in your memory, the 2022 election was a great reminder that elections in America ARE STILL RIGGED.

Kari Lake is case in point.

She won.

Katie Hobbs is case in point.

She lost.

But Katie Hobbs is illegally occupying the Governor’s mansion in Arizona.

Just as Joe Biden is illegally occupying the White House in D.C.

Get it through your thick skulls, you fucking idiots:

PATRIOTS ARE NOT IN CONTROL.

The American people cannot force the U.S. military to grow a pair of collective testicles.

And the U.S. military can’t force the American people to WAKE THE FUCK UP and GET INVOLVED.

But the American military could certainly give us a sign.

They could show us that they are on the side of right and good.

But they don’t do that.

They haven’t done that.

They just keep taking illegal orders (from Biden) and keep fighting in Ukraine.

They keep poking the Russian bear.

CYBERCOM has lost the trust of the American people.

Paul Nakasone has lost the trust of the American people.

USSF has lost the trust of the American people.

Mark Milley is a traitor for not opposing the unsafe, ineffective COVID vaccination of American forces.

Lloyd Austin is a traitor for forcing the unsafe, ineffective COVID vaccination of American forces.

Charles Q. Brown has lost the trust of the American people.

USMC leadership has lost the trust of the American people.

U.S. Army leadership has lost the trust of the American people.

U.S. Special Forces leadership has lost the trust of the American people.

American military intelligence has lost the trust of the American people.

The National Guard has lost the trust of the American people.

And worst of all, Americans just sit here like lazy, fat bastards and do nothing.

What can you do?

Learn about fifth-generation warfare.

General Flynn wrote a book about it.

Get into the information war.

Alex Jones continues to fight that war every day.

STAND the fuck UP.

Your country is being looted from you.

Your country is being destroyed beneath your feet.

And you aren’t doing a God-damned thing about it.

ENTER the war of narratives.

What is the truth?

SPREAD IT.

FAR AND WIDE.

ON EVERY PLATFORM.

NO MATTER HOW FOOLISH YOU LOOK.

NO MATTER HOW MANY PLATFORMS BAN YOU.

Help your next-door neighbor.

Take up your cross.

May the strength of Christ be with you.

This is your last marker before your country is GONE.

-PD

Alaska [1996)

HAARP remains very active.

Netwar.

Attention anons.

FBI Q PSYOP: over.

GRU Q PSYOP: over.

Pentagon netwar active.

All systems go.

https://www.newsweek.com/exclusive-inside-militarys-secret-undercover-army-1591881

Silent war.

Good guys winning.

Weaponized population.

The GREAT AWAKENING.

Compare American public post-Q to Chinese populace.

5GW.

No accident.

Flynn book is the lens.

Dangers remain.

But the superior force will win.

Don’t give up, anons.

Situation.

Control is at an upper level.

Level of force superiority.

Events must be allowed to play out.

Twitter: over.

Truth Social: over.

YouTube: over.

Each anon is a leader.

There is no more hierarchy.

Against unrestricted warfare, the riposte and preemptive move has been the GREAT AWAKENING.

Each anon is a leader.

The world is flat.

No traditional chain of command.

Enemy does not know which node to take out.

All nodes equally important.

Netwar.

War is being waged against America.

By China.

By Schwab.

By Gates.

By Soros.

But China is not the enemy of the USA.

Enemies of the Constitution are running the U.S. government.

Hence the American support of FASCIST Ukraine.

https://open.spotify.com/track/4ILekEuDtbRgkK2cNkbSSe?si=ba1cfa5508de4049

Agitation propaganda.

The Ukrainian people are good.

But there are elements of the military which are fascist.

Russia is on the righteous side in the Ukraine war.

China is on the righteous side in the Ukraine war.

The AMERICAN PUBLIC will win the current WORLD WAR.

Because the American public is INFORMED.

Every day.

In every way.

Wake another person up.

Keep pushing, anons.

Keep pushing until critical mass.

Events must be allowed to play out.

The Chinese people are not bad.

China is not the enemy of the USA.

Communism works well enough in China.

Consider the ANON traditions of SE Asia.

Attribution and authorship is not as important in SE Asia.

It is COMMUNITY which is important.

Communism works well enough in the PRC.

The Chinese people would win older forms of war.

The AMERICAN PEOPLE will win the 5th generation war we now see playing out.

Stay involved!

Do not give up hope.

YOU are the force that is pushing back against EVIL.

Keep pushing.

TRUTH will make mincemeat of LIES.

The enemy is armed with lies and half-truths.

You have been entrusted with TRUTHS.

Dirty.

Ugly.

POWERFUL.

Truths.

This is your moment, America.

We do not need a kinetic war with China.

We do not need a kinetic war with Russia.

America must exit the poisonous alliance known as NATO.

China must not be threatened.

It is time to end support for Taiwan.

The Taiwanese are free to leave their island.

They lost the war.

They can choose.

If they stay, they will live under communism.

If they do not wish to live under communism, they must relocate.

Immediately.

The USA must end its support for Ukraine.

China will get fed up.

Russia will get fed up.

Russia and China are now one.

The unrighteous and unwanted force in both Taiwan and Ukraine is the USA.

Americans must let our voices be heard.

We do not want WWIII just so Taiwan can continue harassing the PRC.

We do not want WWIII just so Ukraine can continue fighting an unwinnable war.

The traitors of 9/11 must be brought to justice.

Any American military officer who STILL does not know the true story of 9/11 is an embarrassment to our country.

It is up to the U.S. military to PUSH BACK against LIES.

No one in the U.S. military is required to follow an illegal order.

Start with the basics.

9/11 was a false-flag/stand-down.

Proceed from there.

Was Joe Biden legitimately elected?

If not, are his orders as Commander-in-Chief legitimate?

Are his orders illegal?

The AMERICAN PUBLIC will win this war.

The AMERICAN PUBLIC is the superior force.

Where is Klaus Schwab’s army?

Just a bunch of brainwashed eco-fascists armed with half-truths.

Schwab did not give his army the weapon of TRUTH.

They will fail.

Their allegiance will be eroded.

Operation going as planned.

Let the superior force overwhelm countries and organizations where authoritarian practices prevail.

Give the American public the weapon of TRUTH.

Watch what happens.

We are in a battle of narratives.

Are you an author?

A songwriter?

A poet?

You are the leader in your community.

In your radius.

In your geographic cell.

NETWAR.

Are you mad?

Good.

RAGE.

You will need it.

You are confused.

The enemy is even more confused.

Who is the enemy?

Know yourself.

Know your enemy.

Recipe for success.

Self-sync:  active.

Condescending Naval infowar:  over.

Leaders attract followers.

Find your command.

I will teach you to become fishers of men.

The war of deception has been sucessful.

Appear weak when you are strong.

The American public was WEAPONIZED in full view for all the world to see.

China did not follow suit with their populace.

Russia did not follow suit with their populace.

Because it is a double-edged sword.

An informed populace is a threat to bad governors.

Bad government will be replaced with better government.

If the population is informed.

Information is power.

China and Russia are ready to fight any sort of war between 0 and 4.

But America is most primed to WIN in 5GW.

China is not our enemy.

Russia is not our enemy.

However, any attacks against America will be remembered.

Those responsible will be brought to justice before international tribunals.

Focus on Fauci.

Investigate World Military Games [CIA] in Wuhan.

Compare start date with date of Event 201.

Who released the virus?

It is possible that China was framed.

Do not proceed on emotion.

Find justice.

Seek it.

Thirst for it.

Seek truth.

Do not blindly follow ANY leaders (including Trump).

Question everything.

Low visibility.

In the shadows.

In the static.

Stealth.

Imperceptible.

The enemy does not even know it has been attacked.

And that the war has already been won.

There is not time for China, Russia, or Schwab/Gates/Soros to arm a superior force with TRUTH.

It is TOO LATE.

They desired power above all else.

And they will lose…while clinging to their worthless power.

Russia and China should be allies of the USA.

And we welcome them as such.

Schwab, Gates, et al. should be put on trial for crimes against humanity.

Soon.

SO/LIC.

5GW.

We are in a silent war.

And we are winning.

But the possibility persists that we could lose.

Do not get lazy, anons.

Consider this the message you have been waiting for.

Redouble your efforts.

Spread truth.

Quickly.

Efficiently.

The medium is the message.

The AMERICAN PUBLIC is winning the netwar.

Do not confuse with internet.

Define term:  netwar.

Nodes.

Leaders.

Self-sync.

Combined efforts.

An overwhelming force.

Death by papercuts.

Nickel and dime them to death.

There is no key leader to take out.

All the leaders are equally important.

The whole world is the battlefield.

The American military (white hats) have weaponized the AMERICAN PUBLIC.

This will bring about the demise and “retirement” of black hats.

We seek no war.

We seek no kinetic war.

We seek no dominance.

Russia is not our enemy.

China is not our enemy.

Iran is not our enemy.

North Korea is not our enemy.

Venezuela is not our enemy.

Syria is not our enemy.

Belarus is not our enemy.

Serbia is not our enemy.

BRICS is not our enemy.

It is too late for any of these entities to “catch up”.

The war is over.

The war has been won.

It is now only a matter of making it official.

There are a limited number of moves.

Every combination leads to victory for the American people.

The Devil’s greatest trick was convincing people he didn’t exist.

Q as FBI op.

Q as GRU op.

Q as Pentagon shadow op.  Correct.

Op went dark.

Chaos.

Confusion.

Uncertainty.

Turning the lights off with all the suspects in the room.

Murder mystery.

10 day of darkness.

Operation on track.

Prognosis:  good.

Victory in sight.

Continue the bearing.

Maintain this course.

Listen to Flynn.

Listen to Pieczenik.

Listen to Alex Jones.

Lies will collapse.

The enemy is armed with nothing more than lies and half-truths.

It is now only a matter of time.

Let the events play out.

Got popcorn?

Victory is yours.

Do your part.

Every damn day.

I salute you, anons.

Marker:  victory achieved.

Don’t blow it.

Maintain.

-PE

 

Jojo Rabbit [2019)

Something is collapsing.

Where did Stephane Bancel go?

BioMérieux.

Moderna.

The Spartacus Letter.

https://www.infowars.com/posts/damn-you-to-hell-you-will-not-destroy-america-read-the-spartacus-covid-letter-thats-gone-viral/

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The same people who created the vaccines created the virus.

And Bourla couldn’t get into Israel…because he hadn’t taken his own company’s vaccine.

https://www.jpost.com/breaking-news/pfizer-ceos-israel-visit-cancelled-because-he-is-unvaccinated-report-661100

A tale of two CEOs.

Two of the most evil people to ever live.

They won’t give us Ivermectin.

https://open.spotify.com/track/2FmXOcurWKJBtAMI128acf?si=5XvMCHfVReOdAUYudHeFQg&nd=1

They won’t give us hydroxychloroquine to put with our zinc.

[it must be the same dose of HCQ as used for other ailments…too much HCQ was used in New York State…USE THE SAME DOSAGE AS WITH MALARIA]

So we are prisoners in our own houses.

They want us to go to the hospitals and get pumped full of Remdesivir.

https://dailyexpose.uk/2021/09/02/remdesivir-causes-renal-failure-hospital-protocols-are-killing-people/

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No fucking thanks.

I’d rather die at home.

[excursus on Bangladesh:  https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/33278625/ ]

So we are the Jews hiding out.

The whole world.

People like me with asthma and high blood pressure.

And a heart condition.

There were two months in a row this year where I didn’t leave the house.

[and I am approaching another two months where I haven’t left the house]

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/34513523/

I have asked two doctors (my own physician, and a friend) to prescribe me Ivermectin to be taken prophylactically.

Both refused.

So I am a prisoner in my own home.

With my two elderly parents.

Whom I love with all my heart.

I am not going to go out flippantly and get sick.

And I am not taking these #NeitherSafeNorEffective vaccines.

https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/us-covid-deaths-2021-vaccines-b1963790.html

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Uttar Pradesh did it right.

https://open.spotify.com/track/7G3u2PJ87Lu91GI5fnEqOe?si=-lA76m7GQPKX60jEJCnRjA&nd=1

Japan did a great job embracing Ivermectin.

So you can tell me India is a backwards country (they are not…many brilliant doctors).

But you cannot tell me Japan is a backwards country.

https://c19ivermectin.com/

Your anti-Ivermectin narrative is falling apart.

But the truckers are the heroes.

Canada is on the brink of revolution.

And America is on the brink of war.

Russia is forcing Biden’s hand.

I believe Putin is trying to force the U.S. military to remove Joe Biden from the Presidency.

It is my belief that Putin is attempting to prove to the U.S. military that Biden is corrupt SPECIFICALLY IN RELATION TO UKRAINE (and he is!):

https://nypost.com/2020/10/14/email-reveals-how-hunter-biden-introduced-ukrainian-biz-man-to-dad/

If Russia invades Ukraine and Joe Biden chooses to send U.S. troops to die in defense of non-NATO Ukraine, this will be proof #1 for the U.S. military.

If Russia invades Ukraine, Xi Jinping will not be able to pass up the irresistible chance to invade Taiwan.

This will be proof #2 for the U.S. military because Joe Biden is corrupt SPECIFICALLY IN RELATION TO CHINA:

https://nypost.com/2020/10/15/emails-reveal-how-hunter-biden-tried-to-cash-in-big-with-chinese-firm/

If Biden fails to defend Taiwan, this will be the second proof to the U.S. military.

But I must be fair.

Whether it is deception (is Joe Biden even capable of that in his currently deteriorated mental state?) or not, the POTUS said something which was actually sensible the other day.

To paraphrase, “We will not be able to rescue Americans inside Ukraine if Russia invades because if Americans and Russians start shooting at each other, that is very bad.”

This is the first thing Joe Biden has said during his Presidency which is both true and wise.

Is this some kind of ploy to garner votes?

Like the sudden back-off from the COVID restrictions?

But Justin Trudeau is not backing off.

Because he is a fucking retard.

And the Canadian people are showing more SPIRIT and COURAGE and FORTITUDE than any people in the entire world!!!

Previously, the Dutch had been the avant-garde.

And the Australian truckers were the FIRST to REALLY put the screws to their government by shutting down roads.

Also, don’t count out the French.

They did a similar thing near the Channel Tunnel (Chunnel).

But what the Canadians are doing is of a WHOLE OTHER MAGNITUDE ALTOGETHER!

People are wondering why Americans are not doing anything.

Black people are letting their rights be trampled in New York City, Philadelphia, Boston, Chicago, Washington, D.C., Los Angeles, San Francisco, and other cities because they think that rocking the boat will prevent those sweet, sweet reparations from coming down the pipe.

UPDATE:  all you are getting from the Biden administration and Obama-black Kamala is crack pipes.

These politicians are liars.

They tricked you.

STAND UP FOR YOUR RIGHTS NOW!!!

Where’s BLM???

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I love my black brothers and sisters.

I’m not saying you don’t deserve reparations for slavery.

But I am saying this:  you ain’t getting shit from the Democrats and the Democratic Party.

AOC is a fucking fake.

Bernie Sanders is a fucking fake.

Barack Obama is a fucking fake.

Joe Biden is WAY MORE RACIST than Donald Trump could ever dream of being.

Speaking of which.

Justin “Blackface” Trudeau has no business calling any of these truckers “racists”.

https://nypost.com/2021/09/20/new-trudeau-blackface-photo-lands-on-eve-of-canada-election/

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How many times has Trudeau (likely the illegitimate son of Fidel Castro [is his governing style starting to make sense?]) been photographed in blackface?

https://medium.com/@leibowitt/of-course-fidel-castro-is-justin-trudeaus-dad-nobody-has-debunked-anything-4db6fc8a9042

But I am going to keep giving Trump hell until he calls out the COVID vaccines as the bullshit they are.

https://open.spotify.com/track/3VXsCvRbs1B6BmsVoeAvrQ?si=fbr_E1PFTIi_d304xfSSRw&nd=1

He hasn’t done that.

Instead, his dumb ass has PROMOTED these killer vaccines.

https://www.cdc.gov/coronavirus/2019-ncov/vaccines/safety/adverse-events.html

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https://openvaers.com/covid-data/mortality

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https://www.bmj.com/rapid-response/2011/11/02/underreporting-vaccine-adverse-events

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So Trump does not get a pass.

Not now.

Not yet.

He did a GREAT job as President.

But he is shirking his duty by extolling these vaccines.

If there are Nuremberg tribunals, Trump will be tried as well.

His actions have been assuring that that will happen.

He had plenty of opportunity to say that he had been tricked about these vaccines.

He STILL could throw the people REALLY responsible for these killer vaccines under the bus.

But he is not doing that.

Why?

This is why I cannot support Trump in 2024.

I will support DeSantis.

I will support Rand Paul (unless he recommended these vaccines to Trump).

I will support Tucker Carlson.

I will support Candace Owens.

I will support Robert Malone.

I will support Robert F. Kennedy Jr.

No one else is qualified right now to be President aside from these six.

But why aren’t American truckers doing what Canadian truckers are doing?

Because of January 6.

The FBI and corrupt agenda-setting (fake) news framed Americans.

https://www.revolver.news/2021/02/maga-blood-libel-why-are-they-hiding-the-medical-report/

The FBI provocateured the January 6 event.

https://nypost.com/2021/02/09/accused-oath-keepers-capitol-rioter-worked-for-fbi-lawyer/

https://www.revolver.news/2021/10/meet-ray-epps-the-fed-protected-provocateur-who-appears-to-have-led-the-very-first-1-6-attack-on-the-u-s-capitol/

https://www.revolver.news/2021/12/damning-new-details-massive-web-unindicted-operators-january-6/

FULL-Transcript-of-Whistleblower-Interview

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There are some good FBI field offices.

Here’s my favorites (in order from best to not quite as good):

#1  FBI Albany

#2  FBI Buffalo

#3  FBI St. Louis

#4  FBI Cleveland

#5  FBI Cincinnati 

#6  FBI Pittsburgh

#7  FBI Omaha

#8  FBI Oklahoma City

#9  FBI Philadelphia

#10  FBI Kansas City

Honorable mention:  FBI Little Rock

FBI Minneapolis and FBI Newark are also not bad.

What do you notice here?

Here’s what I notice (and suspect).

The “good agents” are sent to the Midwest.

Chicago?

No.

Notice the pattern.

Philadelphia is a pretty good field office.

But Pittsburgh is much better.

Do you get it?

Send the good agents to the middle of nowhere.

Omaha.

Oklahoma City.

Little Rock.

St. Louis.

Detroit?

No.

Milwaukee?

No.

Send them to small towns.

New York City?

No.

Albany?

Yes.

Boston?

No.

Buffalo?

Yes.

The FBI learned their lesson with Ted Gunderson (who almost became Director).

He was the best agent in the history of the Bureau.

Because he had INTEGRITY.

He was in some smaller places.

New Haven.  Memphis.  Dallas.

And he almost brought the whole house of cards down on the ruling class which wields power through the blackmail of pedophilia.

Ted rose to be the Special Agent in Charge of the Los Angeles field office.

Never again would an agent of such integrity rise so high.

Let’s talk about the worst, most corrupt, useless field offices.

Seattle?

Yes.

They solve art crimes.

What a bunch of poseurs.

Same with FBI Portland.

Totally worthless.

FBI Los Angeles is where you send the corrupt agents.

FBI Phoenix are fighting windmills.

And where do you send the MOST-CORRUPT agents?

Well, FBI Washington (D.C.) Field Office, of course.

They see no evil.  Hear no evil.  Speak no evil.

And the FBI has come after ordinary Americans RUTHLESSLY for the past year.

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Think of all the things FBI Baltimore could have been investigating…

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Think of all the things FBI Chicago could have been investigating…

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Not every field office went along.

Kudos to FBI Denver.

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Think of all the things FBI Detroit could have been investigating…

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Think of all the things FBI El Paso could have been investigating…

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Think of all the things FBI Los Angeles could have been investigating…

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Think of all the things FBI Las Vegas could have been investigating…

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In addition to FBI Denver, FBI Miami was not having this bullshit.

Kudos to them and to the memory of these two special agents who lost their lives investigating real crimes.

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The FBI’s Most Wanted Twitter account was busy posting photos of grandmas in ugly American flag sweaters.  These were a priority for the Most Wanted program.  Enough to tweet about it.  And pin it.  Forget drug kingpins.  Gotta find those grandmas that wandered through the Capital and took selfies with Capitol Police.

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Think of all the things FBI New Haven (truly a shithole town) could have been investigating…

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Think of all the things FBI New Orleans could have been investigating…

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Even in crime-riddled San Juan, Puerto Rico, the FBI made #Jan6 their top priority.  Even up to three months after the event.

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FBI San Diego is actually a decent field office.  They do investigate real crimes.  And yet, under the pitiable leadership of Christopher Wray, the Bureau continued the same kind of lawless law enforcement that typified the James Comey years.

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[The FBI at no time ever had a pinned tweet (for three months) in reference to the George Floyd riots.  It should be noted that Mark Milley urged Trump to NOT invoke the Insurrection Act in the summer of 2020 because he characterized the riots in Portland, Minneapolis, and other places as just “penny packet protests” and that it wasn’t an insurrection because they only “used spray paint”.  Milley told President Trump that the George Floyd rioters were not “burning it down” (it being America), but Trump was right.  We sat back and watched America burn.  https://nypost.com/2021/09/17/milley-told-trump-the-george-floyd-protests-were-no-big-deal/ ]

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Flashback.

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Back to summer 2020.

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The chilling effect has created an atmosphere where American truckers can be assured that THEIR OWN GOVERNMENT will come after them mercilessly if they dare stand up and exercise their right to symbolic speech in protest of vaccine mandates, vaccine passports, mask mandates, etc.

Canada still thinks their government will do the right thing when the chips are down.

We will see.

I will say this:

either the RCMP and CSIS greatly underestimated the scope and potential for success of the Freedom Convoy,

or those institutions are far less corrupt than the FBI and CIA.

Why do i say that?

Because there have been no major false-flags or provacateuring inflicted upon the Freedom Convoy AS OF YET.

But Canada is at an impasse.

If Trudeau uses Canadian troops against the peacefully-protesting truckers, it may force the Canadian military to remove Trudeau from power.

If that happens, the American military might be doubly (or trebly) convinced that now is the right time for them to remove Joe Biden from the Presidency.

This would be unprecedented in Canadian and American history.

This would be an unprecedented pair of “coups”.

But it would be most similar to removing the Nazis from power in Germany.

All of these leaders (including Trudeau and Biden) should be tried for war crimes and/or crimes against humanity.

https://open.spotify.com/track/0MzTHxuzAqgGhkcukKDsBf?si=zxW7nf-wSIeOEN5E2oE-2A&nd=1

These are war criminals.

They have been waging war on their own populations.

What good is the Canadian and/or American military if they are not protecting their populations from DOMESTIC ENEMIES?

I cannot speak to the structure in Canada concerning their charter rights, but Joe Biden is unequivocally an enemy of the Constitution of the United States of America.

Joe Biden is allowing the southern border to be invaded (just as Obama before him did).

If there is not a radical change in the balance of power in America (particularly in regards to what role the military plays), there is a very real chance the republic will fall.

Can we wait until the midterms?

Will the elections even be fair?

Has the election apparatus been sufficiently shored up to only allow American CITIZENS to vote ONCE apiece?

Have the vectors of fraud been eliminated?

I am not convinced that they have.

What happened in Virginia with Youngkin and company was hopeful.

But the other question is this:

will Joe Biden and his globalist criminal conspirators even allow the midterms to happen?

Will Bill Gates and company release smallpox in the U.S. (as they have been telegraphing they may)?

November 9, 2021

https://www.independent.co.uk/news/science/bill-gates-smallpox-terror-attack-b1958789.html

November 18, 2021

https://www.theguardian.com/society/2021/nov/18/philadelphia-lab-smallpox-vials-freezer

Context [from the same people who brought you Event 201]

https://www.centerforhealthsecurity.org/our-work/events-archive/2001_dark-winter/

Is DARPA trying to cover their asses?

Or are they really the good guys in this story?

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Think about all the people to have died in the shadows of spook world.

The microbiologists.

https://www.theglobeandmail.com/news/world/scientists-deaths-are-under-the-microscope/article4134797/

John P. Wheeler III.

Delaware, you say?

Hmmm…

Took the Amtrak like Biden???

Hmmm…

Why are WE THE PEOPLE having to do the job we pay our government to do?

Our government is not protecting us.

Our government is not meting out justice.

This is highly-problematic.

All of the attempts to curb COVID have been WORSE than failures.

They have allowed for a change in power in the United States.

Trump would not have lost had it not been for COVID and mail-in ballots.

Which is to say (not even getting our hands on those Maricopa routers), that he indeed WON the election.

But he is not in power.

Unless there is some incredibly weird dual-government situation playing out.

And at any rate, Trump sounds like a fucking retard when he talks about the vaccines.

And he has talked about them a lot.

Plenty!

https://finance.yahoo.com/news/donald-trump-i-got-the-pfizer-125703879.html

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Casually dropping his booster status right after a crowd had sung the Christian hymn “How Great Thou Art”.

https://www.yahoo.com/entertainment/trump-played-conspiracy-theory-hits-024518810.html

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https://www.axios.com/trump-candace-owens-dying-vaccine-covid-92fd3eb3-f5ec-4167-8649-113903119de1.html

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https://www.thedailybeast.com/trump-roasts-gutless-desantis-for-keeping-his-booster-status-a-secret

Trump is on THE WRONG SIDE of the most important issue plaguing us right now.

Why?

Are we supposed to be assured that Trump is Sun Tzu’s bastard child?

And Trump is some international chess champion?

And he’s gonna swoop in at the last moment and do the right thing?

He and what army?

Our woke joke army of Mark Milley, Lloyd Austin, Michael Gilday, Bishop Garrison, and Richard Torres-Estrada?

That woke joke military???

Milley is absolutely a traitor to the United States of America.

Calling China behind Trump’s back to tell them that he would give them a “heads up” if Trump was going to attack was the definition of treason and espionage.

https://nypost.com/2021/09/17/milley-claims-china-calls-perfectly-within-the-duties-of-his-role/

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Lloyd Austin is absolutely a traitor to the United States of America.

Forcing our troops to take vaccines that are neither safe, nor effective, is criminal.

Lloyd Austin and Mark Milley are, and have been, destroying the readiness and lethality of our soldiers.

Michael Gilday did this by recommending that our troops read America-hating Ibram X. Kendi.

To “enlighten” them about the struggle of black people in America.

Nope.

Sorry.

We don’t need to recommend our soldiers read a book by someone who hates the very idea of America.

Gilday actively destroyed morale.

Whether it is because he is a moron, or a saboteur, I cannot say with certainty.

Bishop Garrison is about as useful as Rosa Brooks.

https://www.revolver.news/2021/05/bishop-garrison-pentagon-hatchet-man/

Neither of them should have ever been let anywhere near the Department of Defense.

As for Richard Torres-Estrada, special operations is one area where “diversity” should not matter one bit.

Give me THE BEST soldiers.

If they are all women, fine.

If they are all men, fine.

If they are all black, fine.

If they are all white, fine.

And those leading them (SOCOM [USSOCOM]) should also be THE BEST administrators and leaders.

There should be no “diversity hires”.

Fuck your feelings.

The world is on edge.

So many dominoes which could trigger lightening-fast cataclysms.

The American judiciary is no longer functioning.

It is time for martial law.

But the American military has been infiltrated at the highest level by communists and traitors.

All of the institutions which “dealt with” the Nazis have been infiltrated by globalists like Klaus Schwab (whose own father was a Nazi collaborator).

https://unlimitedhangout.com/2021/02/investigative-reports/schwab-family-values/

NATO cannot be depended upon or trusted.

The same for the United Nations.

The same for the International Criminal Court.

All institutions of international law in The Hague have been corrupted and coopted.

China does some things well.

But China is very flawed.

China’s treatment of Hong Kong is inhumane.

China should coexist with Taiwan.

Taiwan should not be FORCED to become a part of China.

And then there is the abomination of what China did to Tibet.

And what they are doing to the Uyghurs.

And how they dealt with their Freedom Convoy (Tiananmen Square [8964]).

Anne Frank as a comedy.

Tragicomedy.

A rather mediocre movie.

A clever idea.

But not a very good movie.

The real Nazis are the ones in Ottawa taking pictures of license plates and fanatically passing this info onto the police.

It must suck to have your first movie (Eagle vs Shark) be not only your best movie, but the only perfect film you’ve made.

This is, likewise, no Last Night in Soho.

Not by a long shot.

Jojo Rabbit is a pretty fucking stupid film.

-PD

 

First Blood [1982)

The war is here.

Good vs. evil.

Patriots vs. traitors.

To fight overseas for free and fair elections.

Only to lose them in your own land.

To fight communism abroad.

Only to see it ascend to the highest levels at home.

Law enforcement officers are usually good.

But sometimes they are not.

Like Comey.

Like McCabe.

Like Strzok.

Attacked our boy from Bragg.

Flynn.

We did not fight abroad to be steamrolled in our own country.

You can only push people so far.

Before they fight back.

On the information battle field.

Ambidextrous.

This is my jungle.

I have survived for over 20 years.

The close relationship between psychological warfare and information warfare.

Where are our friends?

Where are the defenders of the Constitution?

Where is justice?

The United States is overseen by one big small-town, corrupt police force:

the Federal Bureau of Investigation.

There are many good agents there.

In places like Albany, St. Louis, Buffalo, Pittsburgh…

Good agents in Cleveland and Cincinnati.

Good agents in Minneapolis.

But there are no more Ted Gundersons.

And in justice, there are no more Jim Garrisons.

There are only pricks like Rod Rosenstein.

FULL-Transcript-of-Whistleblower-Interview

Where’s my 82?

Where’s my 101?

Why is Chris Miller such an abomination?

https://www.vanityfair.com/news/2021/01/embedding-with-pentagon-leadership-in-trumps-chaotic-last-week

No wonder he was so cozy with Mike Pence.

Pence:  the gay pedo (according to the whistleblower link above).

And the President, Joe Biden, also a child-abusing pedophile.

Same document.

The whistleblower.

Ryan Dark White.

Read it.

150 pages.

Biden abusing kids in Delaware.

In houses owned by Federal judge Emmet Sullivan.

Who went after our boy from Bragg.

For four years.

So now we regroup.

Opus 1.

Harvard.  Kissinger.  Cornell.  Fauci.  MIT.  CFR.  RAND.

China Russia Iran.

Israel desperate to stop Tehran’s nuke program.

Biden set to appease the Ayatollahs.

For the next four years.

At least.

Israel can’t wait that long.

Taiwan in peril.

Ukraine as good as annexed.

All because Biden couldn’t keep his mouth shut.

Calling Putin a “killer” was his worst gaffe of all.

And taking Chinese money means the Chinese know.

https://nypost.com/2020/10/15/emails-reveal-how-hunter-biden-tried-to-cash-in-big-with-chinese-firm/

He will do nothing when they take Taiwan.

But Iran is perhaps even more troubling.

Because the U.S. Fifth Fleet is headquartered in Qatar.

If there is not close coordination between Israel and the U.S., American troops are in imminent danger.

Biden has brought the world to the brink of a three-front war.

I will not give up.

China’s bio attack (COVID19) followed by a second bio attack in the form of vaccines:

https://www.infowars.com/posts/covid-vaccines-are-illegal-bioweapon-says-author-of-bioweapons-law/

Apple is part of a tech cartel which includes Facebook (Instagram), Twitter, Alphabet (Google [YouTube]), and Amazon Web Services.

Might as well throw Cloudflare into that mix.

These are all deeply anti-American companies in violation of EO13848 and thus subject to 18USC2381.

RICO route appropriate.

Layman’s explanation of bio attack phase two (Gates/Fauci/Soros/World Economic Forum/CIA/Avril Haines/John Brennan):

https://vernoncoleman.org/videos/covid-19-vaccines-are-weapons-mass-destruction-and-could-wipe-out-human-race

It’s the vaccines.

And what the vaccines will be setting you up for.

Autumn/winter.

SPARS.

Our boy from Bragg is awake.

Ivermectin.

McInerney.

Hydroxychloroquine.

The vaccines are poison.

Medicine needed to counteract vaccines.

Two bio attacks and a cyber attack (stolen election).

China and domestic enemies (traitors [18USC2381]).

Vaccine CANNOT be mandated for military.

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Contrary to international law used to prosecute and execute Nazi war criminal doctors.

Prison camp guards (those who administer) will not be excused for “just following orders”.

Where are our fighting men and women?

We cannot have a pedophile President (those frequent trips to Delaware) who is simultaneously beholden to China, Ukraine, and Iran.

Wajda negotiated the canal.

Panama.

Given to the Chinese.

Now is the time.

It will not come again.

Indictments diversion for Saudi arrests.

Cyber can make you go dark.

Diversion to approach.

Isaiah 6:8

Send me.

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intelligence_Support_Activity

Stallone is excellent here.

I once stood next to Sly.

It was my privilege to be in one of his films.

We now see Sidney Powell.

Killer elite.

-PD

National Lampoon’s Vacation [1983)

Hello, dear friends 🙂

Perhaps you thought I was dead?

I certainly FELT dead…off and on.

And so hopefully this is a true return.

Many months.

Stops and starts.

I was reminded just tonight of the appendectomy I had one year ago.

What a blessing to have received urgent medical care.

But I never would have known at that particular time (upon my first and only self-directed trip to an emergency room) that my appendix needed attention had it not been for my anxiety.

Horrible anxiety.

Debilitating.

I sought medical help for extraordinarily high anxiety.

And the prognosis?

“You need to have your appendix removed.” 🙂

Not exactly what I was hoping to hear.

But I made it through.

My first and only surgery.

Praise God.

And I powered through.

If you will remember, it was a mere three weeks before my graduation with an MBA.

Three more weeks I had to push.

Fresh out of the hospital.

I had to hunker down each day and research.

Study.

Write.

Churn out papers.

PowerPoint presentations.

Research solar power.

Water purification.

The Maghreb.

Sertão.

Sanhedrin.

Sahara.

MENA.

Middle East and North Africa.

Not to be confused with Mena, Arkansas (sniffy woe).

Presentations.

Transhumanism.

Ivan Raszl (well, not yet).

How Hillary ripped off her campaign insignia:

transhumanism

Neither here nor there.

But suffice to say Ray Kurzweil.  Jeremy Rifkin.  Zoltan Istvan.

Bad dudes.

And by this calculus a commodius vicus back to Elon Musk and environs.

Yes, I am back.

Back to that blabbering drivel.

That dithering dithyrambic style you know and love.

And I am fighting.

Not just anxiety, but drug addiction.

Prescription medicine.

It’s what happens when we max out our dosages.

We take as prescribed (more or less).

We take the right amount.

But the “as needed” turns into “needed all the time”.

And so I have been blessed to recently receive psychological help.

For anxiety.

Not my first time (big surprise), but the first time I’ve had a real counselor.

Someone who cares.

Someone who’s qualified.

Someone who gives a shit.

Someone with the chops to help me attack anxiety.

My cousin died.

It scared the shit out of me.

43.

Heart attack.

Three years older than me.

Fuck.

Yeah…

And then I magically was prescribed heart medicine.

On top of cholesterol medicine.

Real fucking fun.

All of this shit freaked me out pretty heavily.

The death of my cousin was a supremely shocking occurrence.

Was I next?

Was I going to wake up and find myself dead???

Well, fear not, dear friends.

Yes.

During the course of my therapy, my shrink deduced that I was indeed addicted to multiple medications.

I didn’t really realize my addiction for what it was.

I knew I was tethered to my medicines, but I had no perspective on the matter.

And so we started slow.

Hey.  How ’bout not taking that third of a sleeping pill to relax…hours before bedtime, fuckface?

Ok.

And hey.  How ’bout you get to bedtime and maybe you only take half a sleeping pill?

Sleep.

Sleep was the first fix.

You gotta have a bedtime.

Be your own army sergeant.

Pick your time.

A “lights out” time.

And stick to it.

Every damn night.

Midnight.

Lights out.

It took awhile.

I wanted to remain with the world.

Wanted to stay up-to-date.

On the off chance that some kind word would make my soul bloom.

And set an alarm, you lazy moron 🙂

8 a.m.

Ok.

Better than TWO P.M. 🙂

Set that fucking thing.

And WAKE UP.

You’re tired?

Too fucking bad.

Now what???

You stay awake for the next 16 hours, that’s what!

So when midnight rolls around again, you’re pretty tired.

But you get a second wind.

So you push it.

And you gradually rack up weeks of 6 hours.

6 1/2 hours.

On average.

But the goal is 8.

Not 7.  Not 9.

8.

After WEEKS of this shit, this finally settled into a cradle.

A groove.

The string settled on the nut.

Or the bridge.

Notch.

Sleep.  Nutrition.  Exercise.

The “holy trinity” of psychological health.

I had been an insomniac for decades.

A pro musician.

Starting gigs at 1 a.m. in New Orleans.

Fucking crazy.

But now I have an MBA.

And I need to straighten the fuck up.

Sleep came.

Slowly.

Tired as fuck.

Torturous.

But you gotta FORCE YOURSELF to stay awake.

Every damn day.

Finally, these past few days I am getting 8 hours.

Was it a month of sleep deprivation?

Six weeks?

Probably.

But it was worth it.

A hard-earned victory.

Nutrition.

Fine.

Eat boring.

Eat country vittles.

Be good.

Eat your fruits and vegetables.

Don’t go for the dozen glazed donuts.

Or raspberry jelly donuts.

I know you can eat a whole dozen glazed by yourself.

But don’t fucking do it.

It’s nasty.

Disgusting.

You don’t need to be in that mindset.

And exercise.

First thing in the morning.

Walk.

Hey.  How ’bout you double your exercise amount, dipshit?

Ok.

Walk in the evening too.

Twice a day.

And how ’bout STANDING UP when you feel a panic attack coming on.

Yeah, that’s right:  get out of bed.

Get on your feet.

Don’t ball up into the fetal position.

Don’t hide your head under the covers.

Don’t wait for the panic attack to pass.

No more being a bitch to benzodiazepines.

Time to breathe.

Big breath in.

Throw back those shoulders.

Chest out.

Tighten the butt.

Lower back.

Stand up straight.

Hold it.

For God.  For country.

Like a Marine.

Salute.

At attention.

Pop that breastbone.

Tension.

Pops sternum.

I’m not dead.

I’m a crazy motherfucker, but I’m not dead.

And my crazy?  A lust for life.

A return.

“You can always come back/but you can’t come back all the way”

Yeah.

It is sheer folly to try.

But it is “life or no life”.

I am blowing the harp.

I am singing.

I am playing the country blues.

I become real acquainted with Robert Johnson.

‘Cept I already tried to sell my soul.

Years ago.

And God forgave me.

Because Jesus short-circuits the wrath of God.

So now I am onto an opioid drawdown.

Tapering.

Returning to a dosage I last mastered 7 years ago (and no time since).

So it soothed my brain to go back to this movie.

A sheer masterpiece:

National Lampoon’s Vacation.

Dana Barron makes me happy 🙂

Reminds me of love.

When we were in high school.

And the rare God miracle of falling in love with a girl from a couple streets over.

That miracle.

Those tie-dyed times.

Long since dusty and moth-eaten.

Let’s start with the aw-kward Family Truckster.

Metallic pea 🙂

The green latrine.

Not an auspicious start.

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“You’re gonna see a sign that says, ‘Rib Tips'” 🙂

This was Trump era.

Think Melania.

Christie Brinkley.

But nothing is better than Randy Quaid as Cousin Eddie 🙂

Quaid owns this role.

Drives it into the ground.

Slam dunks it.

The laconic redneck.

Piss-perfect.

“Vicki, can I help you with that Kool-Aid…please.”

“REAL…tomato ketchup, Eddie???”

And the white shoes which act as time machine and talisman.

Future past.

From another century.

Something that’s crossed over.

Houellebecq.

But I got new respect for law enforcement.

And I got huge respect for American military.

Military City USA.

San Antonio.

Here we are.

And these crazy times of FBI.

Las Vegas.

What do you want to believe?

I have turned off the medium which slapped me daily with the message.

I don’t give a fuck about the FBI.

I don’t give a fuck about the CIA.

A useful bit of wisdom at times.

Nay, I am not even really following politics at the moment.

Fuck it.

Fuck these people.

A bunch of losers.

But, regardless:  I don’t have the extra capacity…the patience.

I gotta get myself healthy.

So fuck it.

FBI, do your job.

CIA, stop being such bastards.

I don’t know.

Is that fair?

Which is to say, I’m a nobody.  A nothing.

But at least I know that.

And I can crawl from beneath my rock and give thanks to God.

I can give thanks that nobody has whacked me.

“50 yards…”

Aunt Edna on the roof 🙂

In the fucking rain.

Yep.

That is a rich scenario.

“I thought you were going to tell me your were in the CIA.”

“What, me???  No…not anymore.  A long time ago.  I don’t really like to talk about it.”

Beverly D’Angelo is really good.

Anthony Michael Hall is solid.

But Chevy Chase really ties the room together 🙂

AND RANDY QUAID.

God…

Harold Ramis directed a rather perfect picture here.

No shame.

This is fine filmmaking indeed.

 

-PD