Sometimes we don’t want to see the same thing again.
I, for example, rewatch movies before writing about them.
I want the impression fresh in my mind.
There’s always something to be said for detached distance from subject matter, but I prefer to experience the film anew if possible.
I had seen Chaplin’s The Kid long ago. It had impressed me, but something made me a bit wary about rewatching it.
I love Chaplin, but I guess I just wasn’t in the mood.
Today has been a weird day (or “sad and lonesome day” as the Bob Dylan tune in my head has been repeating).
But I went for it. What the heck!
And I’m glad I did.
I hope I will be able to say the same tomorrow (or sometime this week) regarding another subject.
I am always quite candid here.
I feel it’s my responsibility. If you study the history of the novel (not that this is a novel) you will notice that writers in the West gradually started to realize the responsibility they had. I feel that everywhere. That’s why Facebook is too much for me. With Facebook I am a howling wreck. I feel the need to shout from the rooftops anything which might help my fellow humans. Of course my judgment is not perfect.
But back to my prior allusion. I made a decision tonight to go see my doctor about changing or adjusting my medications.
Yes, you who might snicker “this guy is crazy” are not totally off the mark.
I have suffered from anxiety my whole life. Once I recognized it for what it was, my life improved dramatically. Getting help was a life-changer.
I never had much depression. Very rarely. But the last year or so has been different. For the first time my depression is outpacing my anxiety.
To be sure, I still have significant anxiety issues from time to time, but my depression has been like a blanket of stifling weight. I feel like a bee drowning in honey.
And so we shall see. Am I afraid? Of course. I’m afraid of change. Don’t fix it if it ain’t broke. But I’m afraid it is broke. Me. I’m kinda broken.
And so I am saying this because I want other people to get help too if they are feeling the same way. I know that help can be cost-prohibitive, but taking that first little step is a big deal.
We change. The medicines we take have to change with us.
It’s scary. But I am lucky. Many people around the world have much more serious things to worry about. They don’t even have a doctor.
And so I hope my visit to the doctor will turn out as well as this reviewing of The Kid. It is a touching story. Chaplin is great as always, but Jackie Coogan kind of steals the show. He’s “the kid”.
This is a cute story which is fit for the whole family. It just might be the best way to introduce kids to silent films. The version in the Criterion Collection has a musical score (which makes a big difference). The score is, of course, written by the multitalented Chaplin. It was part of the 1971 rerelease of this film.
Thank you to my readers for bearing with me. I hope I will be more cheerful in the future. Best wishes to everybody!